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Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
10:02 pm	Time Well its been a while since I last posted anything here. I've had alot of shit going on in my life that I have been trying to deal with. I think back to the start of the year when I was still single and I see lots of time available to hang out with friends, do homework, whatever else I want to do. I do not regret stepping into the dating circles, but it has taken time away from me. I liked what Sean Kennedy had to say during on of his Patrolling episodes. To summarize what he said was that no one owns your time. You just simply let them use your time for things. Work pays you for using your time but will say you are on "their time". That is a load of bull because you could stand up and walk out and the time is still yours. The reason I am getting into the philosophies of time is that I feel that I have no time to myself. My daily schedule goes as follows. 0700-Wake up get ready for school 0800-Leave for school 0905-Class starts 1300-School ends 1320-Homework 1600-Theater rehearsal 2000-My time 2200-Sleep I have but two hours a day sometimes three if I decide to stay up like tonight and I hate not being in control of my life. Peace, Slycat May Server Protect You Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 5th, 2006
1:23 pm	My LJ lost letter to Santa Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Friday I gave sean_kennedy a wet willie, then I took it back (-5 points). Last Tuesday I committed genocide... Sorry about that, sean_kennedy (-5000 points). Last week I ruled Canada as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). In January I helped sean_kennedy see the light (8 points). Last Wednesday I set sean_kennedy's puppy on fire (-66 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-5763 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, bioehaserd Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username: (Comment on this)
Monday, January 2nd, 2006
10:17 pm	I Am Alive!! Hello world! Happy New Year, Merry Christmas, Happy Channaka, Merry Kawanza, Happy Boxing day, and any other holidays I missed between now and my last post. I have been extremely busy over this last while. I have made a new years resolution to graduate this year. I know this may seem like nothing big but at the moment things don't look so good. I have had a few conflicts between my work and school schedules and unfortunatly because money is the root of all evil and is neccissary to do/go/see/be anything in this world it took priority. Spaz and I are still together the 17th of this month will mark 3 months together. I just got back from her house about 20 mins ago. It was good to see her, she has been up in Salt Lake City visiting people for the last week and I have missed her dearly. I never thought I could miss anyone as much as I missed her. Christmas treated me well this year. I got a Garmin etrex vista GPS unit which I have been geocaching with. I also got a new TV for my room to watch movies and play games on. Tomorrow I have school again :( I do not look forward to it either. My government class that I love is on a danger of failing list and my 60 hours that I put in after school are about to disappear because I haven't done a 6 page paper yet. I have until the 12th to get it turned in. Our Police Explorers are going to Chandler, Arizona on the 13th and will return on that Sunday night. We have been training hard for competition. I've loved the 5 man hostage rescue, and the marijuana field raid training. We have over 600lbs on the rope for the tug-of-war but still need classes on Hostage Negotiations and some work on pistol shoot. I am doing the pistol shoot with another explorer while down there. I Love You Spaz! Peace, Slycat May Server protect you Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
9:40 am	Good News!! Well it's been a while scince I posted on here and I appologize for that. However, I am going to post a few things today and I really don't care what you do, be it, read what I have thought/said/done/tasted/heard, or leave. As my father says "There's always atleast one solution if you don't like how things are being run, leave." usually we are talking about the Constitution but it can apply here too. Right so on to the first bit of news. I applied for a possition with our city as a PC technician. I got a call back yesterday (I was home but....preoccupied at the time so I didn't answer the phone) saying that they want to set up an interview with me. So Monday i'll be calling them to set it up. I may have to take a part day or full day off school for it because I refuse to go to school in my interview attire. Thanksgiving was great at our house. My Aunt Uncle and their girls came down along with my grandparents for dinner. Everyone had fun although the talk about Playboys infront of everyone at the dinner table was a little interesting (no it wasn't about me). -----------Nap at work----------- OK....so things have been going and stuff. Me and Spaz are still happily together. Frodough, Red40, Peanuts, and Tulipthewonderreel all got their X-box 360s and im laughing because of the problems that have been poping up. Well thats about all I can think of right now im a little tired from getting home at 02:00 and getting up at 08:00. Later all Peace, Slycat May Server protect you Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
9:23 pm	A Deep Thought Today, i've been made to think. It took something actually happening to make me see it. I was pulled over today, the cop didn't give me a ticket or a warning for that matter but I felt if I were in his position I would have given myself a ticket. I could see he had changed his mind when he reached the driver's window. Now I personally think that the cops in this town should treat me the same as anyone else, I don't ask for special privilages but it's just a perk that comes with a job. In case you're confused by that last statement let me clairify it a little more, no I don't work for the police department but I have relations with someone who does. The cop ask what I thought he should do and I sat there with a straight face and nothing but fear pushing truth out of my mouth and told him I would except whatever punishment he would give. He then ask my girl friend who was in the truck with me what she thought, and im sure it was more of an I-don't-want-to-get-him-in-trouble reaction when she said I didn't know. He was cool with me and I was VERY respectful of him more than I usually am when he's around(no I have no relations with him). After he let us go the thought of how much money the ticket would have cost and how I was going to tell my parents rushed to my mind. $112 would have been the ticket not counting the bail ammount (added because a ticket is a form of arrest). While I was at work I began thinking more on this and came to the conclusion that to risk my life by driving recklessly is one thing but to endanger mine and my girl friend's life was stupid and wrong. If I truely cared I would have thought of that sooner. I want to take this time to appologise to her and tell her that I never want to do that to her again. I care too much for her to even think about losing her. She talks about needing to get the brakes on her car taken care of because they are not going to work one of these times. She said that today while we were riding in her car and it scared the shit out of me for fear that it be a time that she needs them for a life or death situation and they fail. I don't know what I would do should something happen to her. I love you Spaz and I look forward to this weekend when we go to the dance together. Peace, Slycat May Server protect you, (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 4th, 2005
6:39 pm	Burn Out ALERT!!! Alright so I didn't post anything about my date for my birthday. I had good reason though, I felt that that kind of information was unneccissary for my girlfriend and my own security. I am currently at work with a shit load of stuff to do but i think Saturday is a good day for office chores. I've been sitting in the Tech Comedy IRC talking with those guys for a while and I have been feeling very down. This is a scary thing for me when I start feeling down. I know that I need to cheer up but how the hell do you cheer up when everything thrown your way is depressing? The world is shit and there's nothing I alone can do about it. Given I have my times that I can be a convincing speaker but to try and get through to people of my classes and make them see what is happening is like digging a hole through a wall using your forehead as a sledgehammer. They are controlled by the media, every night they have to go home and sit infront of the idiot box and get their programing for the next day. I know this because I used to watch a shit load of T.V. and stopped after seeing what was going on around me. You always see people who donate to a charity and later you discover that they are only in it for themselves. I've seen it happen, you know people that will donate to something then the next time something happens they are expecting something in return because they donated. I do not see money as survival, I see money neccissary for survival but when your in a life or death situation money is about the last thing i'd be thinking about. I'd be looking for food, water, shelter, and tools. with those 4 things you can ensure your survival. I've been burning out over the last week or so. I can feel it comming fast, it's kinda like how you can feel the wind change when something is comming full boar at you. I can see in the next month or so I may very well be looking for a new job if things don't start looking for the better. I keep thinking of how we can possibly hire another person here at our office that can relive Drachen and help me out when I need time off. If we hire someone Drachen can handle servers and answer phones when he wants but me and whoever gets hired can do strictly phones. The problem with that situation is that first where could we put a desk for them? and second where is their pay comming from? I sometimes wonder what would happen if me and Drachen both quit or went on stike. I doubt we would strike but if things got bad for us im sure we would end up leaving. Now to talk about why my sudden drop in mood is scary is something I dont like to talk about because it's something very personal. I have friends that have attempted suicide on multiple occasions. I at one point had attempted it and after that I suddenly realized that people accutally cared about me. Im not saying I feel like no one cares about me because I have someone very close to me that I know cares for me. Im scared because if I made another attempt I would be hurting a lot of people. If there's one thing that scares the shit out of me it's the thought of haveing to attend a funeral for a friend of mine and I wouldn't wish anything like that on anyone. This may seem like an extremely long post but it's been spaced out over the last couple hours, but enough has been said for the night. Peace, Slycat May Server Protect You I Love You Spaz Current Mood: blah (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, October 21st, 2005
5:20 pm	My Confession Well today has been an alright day so far. I've had a few calls that have just pushed me over the edge to where I want to just remove them from the gene pool but, most of them are old enough that they have dried off at the edge of the pool. I have to work the haunted house tonight which should be WAY better than last Friday. Let me tell you about last Friday, so in a previous post I stated that we had won the air concert, that was on a Wednesday. Thursday I was a zombie because I was stupid and would rather hang out with my girlfriend on Wednesday than think about my own health and go to bed and had to help set up the haunted house for the opening night the following day. Friday was a burn out alert for me, life felt/smelt/looked/tasted like shit, all I wanted to do was go home and sleep but school, work, the haunted house, and a stupid midnight movie had been planned and im not one who likes to drop a project at the last minute. So I was literally running on red bull after school. Haunted house went well, me and Kelsey stuck in a wall behind a 2 way mirror waiting for someone to come down the hallway, it's the same thing we will be doing tonight. After we left the haunted house we went and hung out for a little bit just driving around talking. We picked up tosha and headed to the theater for the midnight movie of The Fog movie started at 00:45 and the film broke 15 mins into the movie, we got sick of waiting and left at that point partially because I didn't think that I could drive home after the movie being so tired and all. The moral I learned from that weekend: Don't mess with your sleep patterns it will come back and bite you later Lunch time today I just sat in the bed of my truck listening to Season 3 of Tales From the Afternow in meditation. It was really interesting to just sit down and listen to everything being said instead of bouncing your attention between that and the task your on. I plan to buy a small tape recorder (idea compliments of SKTFM) and use it to record my thoughts and ideas that I have through out the day. In a way I wish they had invented something that could record your thoughts all day long because, I get lots of ideas flying through my head but most of the time I lose them by distractions. So tomorrow I have a nice date planned I wont go into detail (no spoilers) but it should be fun. Today I spent from 12:55 to 15:05 sitting on a couch holding someone close to me. She fell asleep on my shoulder and for some strange reason I felt like a sentury guarding her from anything that could break her fragile sleep. Now I do not claim to be anywhere near a soldier, but planning to go into law enforcement and being prepared for whatever happens makes me who I am. It was so great sitting there with her that the first word out of my mouth when my phone alarm went off to tell me to go to work was, "Fuck!". I know it's not exactly romantic but hey, I didn't want to leave. I could have sat there for eternity. I felt bad having to leave her to go to work. I know I have to have an income for my truck but for that while I just wanted to say "Forget it all they can have my truck as long as I have you," now thats romantic but thats just not my first instincts when I think. I don't know what i'll do when she leaves next weekend, perhaps i'll go on a ride along with someone to keep my mind off the thought of her being gone, yeah that sounds like a good plan. Well i'll write more on this tomorrow after the date of not on Sunday. Peace, Slycat May Server protect you Current Mood: Humble (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
7:15 am	Sore My body is in revolt this morning. I didn't get to go run yesterday morning due to really bad rain, so I decided to go run when I got home. It wasn't a bad run, well it was more of a run/hike. I went down one of the trails I usually hike, there were a couple little hills to make you groan to get up over. On the way down to the point I used my head lamp so I could see the puddles and such, but on the way back I turned the light off and let my nightvison kick in. The run is .9 miles to the point so all around it's 1.8 miles. If i get to where I can run the whole trip down and back without stopping, I think I might try running one of my longer 2 or 3 mile hike paths, those have some serious hills to make it up too. Yesterday was alright. After showing Kelsey how to work some of the equipment in the tech booth, we kicked back on the couch and fell asleep. Couple of my friends kept running up the stairs to come "check" on us(they thought we were getting it on on the couch). Later Kelsey and another friend came up and visited me at work for the last 30 mins of my shift, we sat out in the parking lot laying in the bed of my truck with the topper down. We sat there talking until our friend violently awoke by gasping and slamming her head into the topper on the bed. We had a good laugh at that. Never before have I noticed just how much im watched at our school. Sure the air concert didn't help any because now people who I don't know come talk to me and people who do know me bother me even more. I have started looking over my shoulder more often now too. Perhaps this is my body's sick way of getting me into shape, it makes me paranoid so I want to be prepared for anything. If so it's a really disturbing thing. Countdown to 18: 4 days Peace, Slycat May Server protect you Current Mood: sore (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 16th, 2005
6:10 pm	Good evening! So yeah last night was freaking awesome. Yesterday I went and had my truck washed, I want to thank the Living Water's Fellowship church for that, I would much rather see the money go to a group that could use it than hear my coins go into someone else's piggy bank. So last night went really well, I went and picked up Kelsey at about 1800 and had pictures taken by her parents in front of her house. After we went to Bella Pizza for dinner (we both love eating there). We went to the recreation center to play a couple games of pool before the dance started. We had a blast at the dance. I acually danced at this one. Sure some of the RnB and hip hop that they played I didn't really get into but I still gave it my best to get into it. However, the slow dances were great, there is nothing better than pulling that person close to you and just moving together as one person. We had pictures taken which I can't wait till we get those back. After a while we sat outside with another couple and just visited till the dance ended. When I took her home we hugged and kissed then parted ways for the night. I slept great that night. Next weekend will be awesome! Red40, Peanuts, Spaz, me and who ever else I can think of to invite are going to St. George to go hang out for my birthday. I will be the big 18. The only thing that means to me, ADULTHOOD. I am getting so sick of being told I can't leave the school for lunch and things like that. Peace, Slycat May Server protect you Current Mood: mellow (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 13th, 2005
7:08 am	Shouts Well last night we had a blast. If you didn't already know last night was the air concert (faking/lip-syncing). We figured it up after the show that there were 200+ people in the audience last night. After the entries finnished their shows the teachers had a show of their own to do while people were counting the votes for the winning group. We had just started packing our equipment when we hear our names called as the victors of the show. We walked through the curtin, had the pictures taken, were handed $100.00 and then we had to call Chris and John on stage. Chris and John saved our asses. If they hadn't helped us out when they did we would have made royal fools of ourselves. Although they deny any credit for helping us out, they will be remembered atleast by me for bailing my ass out of the sling. They also won't accept any of the money we won. Peace, Slycat May Server protect you. Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
Friday, October 7th, 2005
6:39 am	Today I woke up feeling nausiated. Something tells me my mom's burgers didn't agree with my stomach very well lastnight. I used to have the stainless steel stomach that could eat just about anything and not feel anything. Im sure i've killed that with the ammounts of Coke I drink. Well i've got a couple important things comming up, first, me and 2 other friends are going to play at the air concert next Wednesday, second, im taking my date for homecomming up to St. George on Saturday after I get off work(she needs a dress, I need supplies for the concert) and finaly, I have homecomming on Saturday the 15th. My friends and I have a lot of work to get done before this show on Wednesday. We have one friend that we have to teach to play bass, and I need to re-learn the song we're playing. The song is "Adam's Song - Blink 182" it's a fairly easy song to play but considering that I have to learn to play the song and sing at the same time, im finding it a little more difficult than I thought. My date for homecomming is ________________(name with held for security reasons). I don't know her all that well but we're always goofing around in theatre class and to be quite frank, she's gorgeous. Peace, Slycat May Server protect you. Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Monday, October 3rd, 2005
9:02 pm	Be Yourself "To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best night and day to make you like everybody else means to fight the hardest battle any human being can fight and never stop fighting." -e.e.cummings Have we been so programed by the main stream media that we are so afraid to be ourselves? The television is controlling your lives! You might think, "I can turn it off when I want." but the truth is that you can't your addicted to it. Belive me I used to be addicted to it and im still paying for it. Im a big guy and i've been working to get rid of the extra baggage around my middle. Stop watching T.V. all it will do is keep your attention when you could be out doing something constructive. Girls are always complaining about being fat and such, here is the perfect chance to fix that. Stop watching your teen age soap operas. Stop watching MTV I remember that for a brief time in my life that MTV actually had music playing on it, now it's nothing but main stream music and shows that promote nothing. I got thinking this weekend about government, and this is what I came up with. Our government is not so bad (hey it could be worse we could live in cuba) The problem lies in how much we let corporations be involved in government. Sure the corporations draw in a lot of money for the economy but they also are destroying people's lives. Do you think they care about you? No, all that they look for is the next deal thats going to put more jingle in their pockets. Peace, Slycat May Server protect you. Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 28th, 2005
7:53 am	Burn out alert! Well im dragging this week. I haven't put a lot of time into writing this week. I seem to have kind of hit a wall and I know I just need to get over it and move on. I still haven't got a date for Homecomming but I think I have a couple girls in mind to ask. Count down is 17 days to Homecomming. Explorers are hitting training early so we're prepared for Chandler PD's competition. Tonight we do entrances, meaning how you enter door ways and get out of the fatal funnel. Peace, Slycat May Server protect you. Current Mood: drained (Comment on this)
Friday, September 23rd, 2005
7:01 am	Torn Well here I am again with homecomming comming fast. Doesn't look like it's going to slow down for anyone. I need a date. After "complications" last year (my date broke her leg). I don't know if I want to go. I might just go for a while then go hang out somewhere else. The question is: WHERE? Bowling alley, arcade, friends house, her house, my truck, all of those sound alright. I would almost be tempted to drive down the path I walk and park to look at the city lights. I need to get a telescope. We live out in the desert and have perfect views of the stars at night. Plus I can look at the city with it. I guess there's always the spotting scope. I just look like im laser sighting the city because it's mounted on an SKS rifle stock. Well as for the update on the book i've been diligently working on (Sean how do you do it?). Im working on Chapter 3. I'll be writing an e-mail to Rant Media asking permission to put my name on the book and giving credit to Sean Kennedy for the work he did on the Tales From TheAfternow show and for all his ideas that were put into it. Peace, Slycat May Server protect you. Current Mood: optimistic (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 18th, 2005
10:21 am	So here I am sitting here asking myself "Why?". Why do I just keep plugging along day after day? I can see that im not getting very far each time I try. I think the reason is that I belive in the long run it will make a difference. I joined the counter-culture to help make a difference in the world, because I saw where it was going and didn't like what I saw. I must say that I have changed alot over the last couple years, sure some in the physical aspect but more of the mental aspects. I now sit here with my 100 pack of CD-Rs and burn media that the government would probly consider propaghanda. My book would probly end up on the banned books list should it ever be published. I am going to hand over all rights to Rant Media. Peace, Slycat When the rapture comes, you'll be the first to come talk to me. May Server protect you. Current Mood: mellow (Comment on this)
Friday, September 16th, 2005
7:26 am	Author Well i've taken up a project that it seems everyone is enjoying. I'm writing a book. I will say in advance that most of the ideas in the book are not mine they came from an online radio show I used to listen to. If your interested in listening to the show it is The Afternow. It is a show that makes you think as you listen to it. I personally belive that it's what will happen if our government doesn't make proper adjustments on what it wants to accomplish. The show focuses around a diary being broadcast back in time. It is the diary of Sean Kennedy VI a person in the wastelands of an uninhabitable world. He speaks of the archologies which is where the setting and events take place in my book i'm working on. if your interested in getting a preview of the book e-mail me at bioehaserd@gmail.com i'd be happy to send you what I have written up on the prologue. Well i'll update this the next time I update it. I can't tonight because im going to hang out with friends...emo. Peace, Slycat May Server Protect You Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
7:30 am	L/user Attitude Readjustment Tool (LART) I think there should be more LARTing in the world, followed by the question of, "Now, what did we learn?" society today has gone mad. With the get rich quick type lawsuits and the stupid things teenagers do. Yes im going to bash teenagers on that too. I know a few people who are lucky to be alive because of something stupid they have done. Now im not talking about things that someone has just done wrong these are the things that people do purposly. There is a gated community in Mesquite that wined to the city council about not haveing a gate up yet. The council ordered the contractor to put up the wall and gate for the community. He got multi-colored blocks to put up the wall and did a very crappy tack weld job to make a gate. Where is natural selection when we need it? Our civilizations have made themselves idiot-proof to their best and yet we still have idiots who can find something stupid to do. They end up getting hurt and them or their family, smelling sweet cash, sue because there was no warning not to do that. I love the quote "Make it idiot proof and someone will make a better idiot." if you do too buy the bumper sticker. My idea is to take all the stickers and warnings off of products (leaving the operating instructions there) and let the problems sort themselves out. When a child reaches 10 years old they should have a very basic understanding that if I put something into an electrical outlet it's going to zap me and if not my parents are going to get mad like they used to. My friends and I have a running joke about O------o which the "O" represents the entire populise, the "-----" is my idea in effect and the "o" is the new enlightend civilization. "The world's IQ is constant, it's the population that changes." -unknown- So as the population gets bigger peoples' IQs get lower to make up for the growing population. Peace, Slycat When the rapture comes, may Server protect you. Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
7:31 am	A New Day Yesterday I went for a nice long hike. My guess is that it was about 2 miles. The trail was my normal trail but I took a side rode that lead off to the right. Kinda dropped down into a valley and backtracked up the valley toward the main road. It comes out at the barricade where the pavement turns into dirt roads. Im kinda distracted by listening to the What The Hell show from Rant Radio. I think I may sign off here and finish getting ready for school. Peace, Slycat And may Server protect you. Current Mood: Distracted (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
7:33 am	Artistic Well once again i've been bitten by the artistic bug. This time I think I might just go through with the whole idea. My idea....a book. Thats right i'm writing a book ladies and gentalman and no it's not a picture book. I have decided to write in one of my favorite genres, Cyberpunk. I have finished the prologue and have been hit with a bit of writers block. Please know that i'm not doing this to follow Sean Kennedy; I am doing this for me. I have never taken up a hobbie and stuck with it for very long and I feel that this is a perfect thing to start with. How can it go wrong? If your interested in getting a copy of the prologue after I edit and revise it please e-mail bioehaserd@gmail.com and I will be happy to send you a copy provided you give me some feedback on how you like it and what I could do better. Know that I am not interested in suggestions for plot or action scenes but feedback on what i've written is greatly apperciated. Your feedback may just get quoted here as well. So far school has been alright. Our senior class seems to have dropped the negative things toward each other and we acknowledge eachother in the halls. The juniors have calmed down alot more scince last year, Sophmores are still rowdy but seem bearable. The freshman on the other hand, i'd love to charge down a hall and just lay one of them out flat on their back. Cocky little noisemakers that like to act like first graders. You know the ones that when you tell them don't do something they go an do it anyway just because you told them not to. "Don't stick your tounge in the electrical outlet." *BZZZZ* "Now, what did we learn?" It's been quiet around the house with my parents gone to Mesa for the funeral. Just me, the dogs and the house. I seem to notice that I get things done when no one's home. Yesterday I wired 2 more speakers into the CD player in my room, rinsed the dust off my truck, put the lisence plate on and cleaned the upolstry. Perhaps they should leave me alone more often...the house might get cleaned by the time they get home. Well time for school. Peace, Slycat Current Mood: pleased (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
7:34 am	Zebras Ok say there's a race in 10 years and they tell you now that the winner will recive whatever their hearts desired. They tell you 10 years in advance so you have time to train but the only catch is that you are racing zebras. Thats right zebras the pony looking animals with black and white stripes. How do you find the best zebra to train? Well ok, because I can't do ASCII art I wont even attempt to draw a picture, say you have a pack/herd of zebras and you have all the fastest ones leading the pack right? Then there's the followers in the middle and dinner for predators at the end. Well scince i've introduced a predator lets throw in one of these guys. So now you have competition among the zebras for survival. Back to thinking about the pack of zebras. So which zebra is the cheeta going to take down first? The one in the front of the pack would take days chasing and wearing down before the cheeta would get his 500lb meal, where the one in the back he could drop in 10 minutes and have himself a 500lb meal. The moral of this story would be to make you think of this in the perspective of your life. Are you in the lead or are you in the rear? Sure the rear would mean you have to exert the lease effort but look who's lunch first. While you would have to be in top condition to stay out front but hey, your not going to be lunch for someone anytime soon. Darwinisim is fun no? Peace, Slycat Current Mood: thoughtful (Comment on this)